Its 12.33am ( way pass my usual sleeping time )...
16 freaking mins to finish dling my bleach...
25freaking mins to laze in my bed and listen to music....
447 freakin mins to my nex lesson in sch...

no idea when im gona stop breathing...

things goin thru my mind...
my maths result...my life....its in such a mess....
i cant get on to my studies well...
i cant even get "Focus" into playin maple...
i am such a useless person....

I wanna change...
i promise to be a better man for someone...
BUT---
wad is the meaning of being a better man.
i made a promise to someone when i dun even know how to fulfill my promise...
i failed terribly...

I have someone small crushes on some ppl...
it'll end soon...

...
..
.

i guess ....

....
..
..

Im not gd enuff for anyone...
im so terrible that ppl even tried to avoid me...
im so detestable that when ppl see me,their face emotion blackens immediately...

im not pushing blames here...
im sry for the faults i carry...
im sry for wad i did that make u react that way...

tell me wad u hate so much in me...
tell me wad make u avoid me so purposely...
tell me wad is in me that dullen ur day...

I'll try to change...

I need some attention...
..
..

.
..

but..


...
...
..


leave me alone for sometime...
..
...

..
I'll be better after a sob...
*sniff*...