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when i look at my life,
i seem to have
lost track of what i really want.
everything i do,
wudnt last more den 30mins
unless it absolutely have to..

i cudnt sit in front of my comp
to even finish watching a single episode of anime

i cudnt play the any game,
without getting bored over it realli quickly

and so

what did i spend my time on?
im ..
opening my internet explorer
and refreshing on the same page,
otherwise staring at my msn window ..

like,
i lost the purpose of my life.
and
im clinging onto something
that is so unreal and might be lost any moment.
sometimes
i cudnt tell
whether im living anot..

i felt so empty,
as thou ,
im so insignificant
and desperately seeking for attention and acknowlegdement.

i guess ..
no matter how i felt
and
how i think
its just all about me.
nobody will even be bothered ..