every single moment

i out for the day ..
and i acted as thou im very happy with my life,
yet,
all that is in my mind,
is you
and you only.

and i really hate it
when ppl say
"dont waste ur money on the presents,
if u cant make her your gf in the end"
it realli pissed me.

I'm not doing all this things
to make her mine.
And i respect her choice for bf.
and that i wanted now for her,
is to be happy.
if there is anyone who is going to hurt her
will have to go thru me.
i would wield my blade if i have to.

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perhaps,
im not ready for relationship?
that i cant provide unconditional love.
for i longed for her love
and i loved her
and i've wantin her love in return.
and i admit im a selfish person
but,
i'd rather she be happy with a guy she like
rather den having her upset.

mayb im not the one for her?
i dunno ..
but ,
ur actions seems to show me that
we'll nv be together..