ag.o.ny
1.The suffering of intense physical or mental pain.
2.The struggle that precedes death.
3.A sudden or intense emotion: an agony of doubt.
4.A violent, intense struggle.

I dun find life any part near agony. I merely talk about devotion. I neva mention anything about myself being devoting.Mayb its because of my stupid-ness that blind me from agony.