adult ? kid ? stuck in the middle

Was talking to naoki the other day..
abt 19 and 21..
turning 20 in like ..less den 10 days ..
not especially excited..
nothing to be interested about..
leaving 19,
makes me no long a teenager..
being under 21,
makes me not a adult yet,
so, what am i?

After 2 nights out with 2 groups of people,
den onli did i realise that..
Im too emotional attached to the cyber world to grow up.
Even thou im out having dinner or chilling with other ppl,
I still have my mind on some other stuff,
which all these people are not mentally attached to it..
:(
Oh i hate growing up :(
I have to take the responsibility of an adult,
yet i get treatment of a teenager..
:(