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i dunno :(
wad i am thinking..
and wad is it
that i realli want ..
but ..
those feeling for her
is so real..
so real .. that it realli hurts ..
after all those things she have done..
..
i cudnt believe,
after wad we have gone thru,
the time we spent together,
has gone to waste ,
i have you treating me like enemy ..
avoiding me whenever possible ..
and sometimes ..
i jus make me feel as thou,
u'll jus treating me good for my help..
and
you jus ignore me when im not of any use..
and,
all you said to me is
you dun care wad i feel as long as i do wad im suppose to do..
and ..
all i cud feel is hurt and pain ..
:(..
I guess ..
i'll nv be good enuff for her ..
im not rich enuff to give her wad she wants,
im not handsome enuff for her to like me
no matter how i look,
i jus felt inferior to her ..
like
i cant do anything better den her ..
that kind of pressure ..
and
im starting to worry abt stuff
like
how will things become after graduation
wad will happen
when,
i'll might nv get to see her,
ever again
when ..
im alrdy feelin so insecure
when i only get to see her once a few ..
perhaps..
sunday will be a good day to sort out wad i really want ..