I've changed. Changed alot i admit. Changed better or worse i don't know. But i know there are things that i do are irritating,lame,stupid,whatever u called it.. Some i did intentionally, some i did unknowingly. I still cant get off my bad habit of wanting attention.

Im not a faithful guy,neither am i flirterous.I do wonder how in the pass im able to like someone,and forget abt it soon after rejection. But this time im not able to forget someone who i had a crush on. I cant bring myself to let go,even though she have a bf.

Nth much to blog abt...holidays ahead, 2 months to heal from the emotional injuries. High possibility looking for a part time job. Btw, Check out O2Jam . Its a really fun game =) . U can ask me to sent u,if the dl is too slow..

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I don't mind. Even if im one of the 3 guy in your life(Placed last). If only u will give me a chance.

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To guys out there,
Heres a msg.

"Situations where ugly guys have girlfriend is impossible in real life."

so guys like me ( ugly and with horrible attitude) , we shud do sth den only we will be able to find a gf...

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XH's Questionaire--

1.Wad is the Greatest mistake that you have done up till now?
XiaoHau's Ans: Falling in love for a wrong girl. Esp when the girl alrdy have 2 guys in her life.

2.Wad is the Greatest acomplishment up till now?
XiaoHau's Ans: No complishment has been fulfilled.

3.Wad do you think other speaks of you about?
XiaoHau's Ans: Im jus a nobody unless help is needed from me.

4.Wad is the thing that you desire most in life?
XiaoHau's Ans: Attention

5.If you have a wish, wad will you wish for?
XiaoHAu's Ans: I wish that all my wish will come true.

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Have anyone have such a experience where...

1.You like someone,
2.that someone have a bf/gf,
3.he/she have a company (opposite sex),
4.and they stick together all the time,
5.and they are almost like a couple,
6.and you happened to see that almost everyday,
7.and everytime you when u see them together ,your heart literally aches.

Since everyone's so free to come here to take a look, why not help me wif this?
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Misconcept of many people have about love. To love someone is not to physically have possesion over someone. But instead to see him/her find true happiness. See him/her happy will make one happy. To be together, we need love. But Loving does not neccessrily mean we have to be together. If you love someone, and all u are thinking about is to possess him/her, you are jus being selfish. A relationship is a 2 way traffic loop. I love you, you love me. Thats how the cycle go.

If the boyfriend love the girlfriend, and the girlfriend dun love the boyfriend, but instead love someone else, what is the use of such a relationship? The relationship may go on, but it wun last.

Ia relationship, both parties have to give their commitment in, if its only one person filling in , sooner or later , it will end. So My point is --- I'll forget about her, once the time have ripe. Until then, i'll keep on with the current status.

The Sth which u speaks of is not defined. Meaning i can say that "sth" means going out for a walk , or wadever it may be. I neva say i am going to do ath thing. If i am going to do sth like disturbing the couple, y the hell would i be trouble abt it? I could jus go ahead and disturb them all i want trying to break them up instead of regurgitating everything here.

Dear Anoynomous & ???:
If you refer to a post quite sometime back, i say i L I K E them. I did not use the word love. And i alrdy stated i have no though of going into a relationship with them. Even if she have a boyfriend, i have no intention of going in and break them up. So wad do i have to be guilty about? So i assume i still have my conscience to keep. I've got myself clear and straight that i neva wan to go into a relationship,unless i get to know her further. I did not bother her at all, and i even doubt wether she know i like her anot.

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I jus come to realise how oxymoronic a person can be. You can hate a person so much that u could kill him/her but still you could like him/her so much that u are willing to die for him/her. What kind of a logic would that be? But if someone recalls wad ms Quek say, throw the logic out of the window. So i guess it does make sense...

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So happy my auntie's gonna buy me a new jeans! And its gonna come in a flight in early april! how great is it?! =)

1/4--Examination 01--OOPG
The paper IS simple.I have to admit it is simple, however i will not do well. My carelessness is giving me some heavy damages.Together with the theory questions...i dunno wad to say alrdy...

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I feel so pathetic..Im studying polytechnic, and i go to sch without a pen... And i met one of my secondary school buddy today..He change alot sia.. Grew a BEARD!! oh my gosh...i used to have them, but i jus shave it off...

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There are things i can do and i wan to do...But no matter wad i tried, i still cant bring myself into forgeting her...although i know its impossible btw me and her...i tried alot things...but i always fail...Den always see the things i dun like to see...den ..........


p.s.[Whenever you are toking to me, and im replying nonsense.
Im not toking nonsense,im jus lost of words to speak.]

well ???, if u know me well enuff, u will know that it's almost impossible to look for possible de girl with my current social circle.Especially in a place where most ppl who only look on the appearance, I ardy got a heavy disadvantage.And i have no gd point or positive attitude to begin with. (someone told me that b4). So ...i dunno how to continue liao...


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sth i forgot to blog abt. My maple acc got hacked, and banned. My connection is down, and it is impossible to be the one be "abuse the maple law" and sell hack. Whoever that guy is, I will not do ath or take any action. Or if u're try to make me mad becoz u suspect me of hacking ur acc, i 'll tell u this, this will not work. I took great pride in my ability to look towards the bright side of things.(for some stuff though) It is well said that "we have nothing to began with", so i will jus retrain a new maple character.

This is the event list of my character.
Started 15 Feb--Currently Lv 27.
Lv30--Change Job Wizard
Lv40--Get Married
Lv50--Open Guild
Lv60--Earn my 1st 10M
Lv70--Change Job to Mage

--[Im looking for maple gf, if u have any female fren who is playing maple and is still single(in maple) , and is interested to look for a marriage, pls tell me]--

Its like 1 or 2 week since i last blogged. Some problem wif my connection... I have SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much to be blog abt.i jus blog wad comes to my mind...

Lemee seee...theres a fight in the LT ytd...Played Mahjong on Mon and Wed..Steven helped me call singnet and i have my connection fixed today..

den look the list
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2.__________

They both come frm TP, Int School, MWC/ITO.
And the most important thing--> I think they hate me... =X

its friday and tml's sat,4th Feb, which means ...im gonna receive me new speed TML!!! oh yeah! * the crowd went clapping~~~* .pardon me for my childish behavior. And lemme think wad i can blog abt..nth...nth...and nth...

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its empty LOL! haha

i have to much to say,but no one's there to hear it.

its a retribution. Sth i did realli wrong is causing wad is happening now. i shall not talk abt that.

I have alot of things to reflect on. Like wad anonymous said, mayb its my attitude or wadever i did that make others to hate me, detest me, keepin a safe distance from me, having bad impression on me, and some of the things i mention quite some time ago, and most importantly, having ppl to tok to me wif a mask. *you know who u are, those "unknow" , "???" , "anonymous" , "passerby" , "Unidentifed".* Or at least tell me wad is the thing in me that u all hated to much. I'll try to change. =X

lesson resume after the "new year celebration",back to sch today. Nth exceptionally to be needed to be blogged. But have to take back sth i say in my blog previously,im not going to complete to poem so soon. I've got something else to work on. A song that is. The chords are 40% done, coz i cant bring up the climax in the chorus, i'll release it on my blog afteri've completed it,but i need a gd mic to record it down =X... thats it nia...