Well...Today was great and terrible~.. ignore me, im jus a oxymoronic bastard... I Saw her... was kinda happy...catching glipse of her~...i know doin this isnt right...but wad can i do! :X i jus love her ... :X... My greatest regret is not confessing to her, but it truely is ... hm...how shld i say this...I feel great when i see her smiling or laugh... than this sth strange happened, she pressed her fingers against a mechanical pencil or pen, den my heart is Literally aching ~_~....
Well...nth to say...She happy can le ^^...

Went to play pool wif jason and jim and zhi qiang at bedok....DEN....came home...Oh yeah...IF there is anyone TP cum IT student who are taking oopg this sem and have diffcult time trying to complete for the week 5 submittion, im posting a open source code of my java ltr at my workshop, u can dl it if u wan to copy/refer/ath you call it. :D

Its the middle of the night...goin to sleep soon...still kinda sad over things...Im such a oxymoronic bastard ~_~..Im sad that someone got her...and im happy that shes happy...well....I jus completed my oopg week 5 submittion scripts today....Ok im open~~~ * shout out loud* Huaahaha... noone read my blog, so no worries~ XP... made a blog specially to display my poems..xiaohau's personal workshop ^^... pls enjoy your stay there... or at least enjoy the poems...i'll be blogging more regularly since things happens here and there and i seriously need to regurgitate things that happen...I seriously dunno wad realli happened...but i rather its real and she is happy =D...

After much delay, my 4th official poem is out.

---- Before,After -----

Even before all it have to happen,
wanting only to be with you only.
Yet unable to overcome the high walls,
the walls of rejection my mind set.
Keeping at a distance watching your smile,
making me million times better than usual.

Knowing that someone is there for you,
having my life depressing harder than even,
starting to hide in a corner sobbing,
finally realising what that i really want,
the smile that i had once enjoyed.

Now knowing that you are receiving love,
I shall back off more than even,
quietly guarding you at a distance apart,
as long as you are staying happy,
the pains of my heart are nothing,
as compared to my love for you.

-------End--------

I realise that i dun realli have the talent for writing poems ~_~. Basing on my previous poems,u will see that they have common things among them..My failure in the pursue of Love. Or much more like life experience based poeming.. haha..Was thinking of setting up a website to display my work pieces~ but...(i dun think i have that much life experience to write as much poem as u will expect)...And i took to much time into mapling and not even bothered to do my assignments X(.Out of the 4 poems i like this most...dunno y.... I Still think this is best out of the 4.

P.s.I dun make false promises,so let fate do its job. =P

Pls Ignore the pass few post ( Those who DO read it,but i doubt).Yep! Its Official, shes taken. As Stated previously ... Give me sometime, the wounds will heal,she will be happy,and i will be glad.
So...My mind might fade off slightly...my focus my slip back to my studies....jus let me drown...let me stand up from this downfall. i have to learn to be strong...But I've being better since i know she got stead le, coz i "give up" a huge burden...~_~ wadever u called it...But pls be happy...knowing u're happy, i'll at least feel better >_<.All the best for Javas. P.s.Nope...not giving up...let nature take its course

Hugging to my principle - I wun help anyone on JAVA, unless i finish mine. Of course there are exceptions basing on circumstances -

After much encouragement by quite a few ppl...XiaoHau will by anyway confess to her...

I LOVE U

there...i jus did it...well despite wad many ppl tell me...I still in a kinda "dunno how to explain" mood...coz most likely she stead wif that guy liao, or most likely that guy have more chance than me...Coz... I like her since last Sem and i did

Nth!

...I din talk to her much, din do much ( cept helping her in her java assignment ) and i sometime quarrel wif her.(sort of like wan to tok to her >_<)........

shag.....i was blogging halfway AND! my ccn day thingy fall onto the floor...broke into pieces...bad omen.... >_<....ppl who read this, pls wish me luck...and i shall mediate 10 secs...Get myself mentally prepared for waz goin to come!

Proven-

Its confirm-

Its him-

No chance liao-

I Cried-

wadever...

Deadlines-

New blogskin...couldnt be bothered to make a new blogskin...the previous blog was a complete failure.My brain not functioning right...wondering off into spaces...assignments deadline coming up...no moltivation to start at all...Cmsk....Fndb...Oopg...Lcja....Cant be bothered...i would skip all the lectures...=/...seriouly when will my deadline be coming =/...im tired of living...

Im bored+angry+sad

Im bored+angry+sad

Im bored+angry+sad

Im bored+angry+sad

Im bored+angry+sad

Im bored+angry+sad

Basically, i would blog once a day...but i cant find any where to vent all my boredom!!! Im out of money, even though i din even spent a cent today ( Literally ). But den my mum goes "blah blah blah ~~~ stop spending so much money ~~~ blah blah blah ~~~ Next time no money den u know lar ~~~ blah blah blah ~~~" Sometimes, it bothers me quite alot. Im emotionally depressed and u are there beside me nagging and nagging and nagging...i have to LEARN to control my temper...and....as some ppl know...something happened...im still upset abt it ( although i dun look like im upset) try not to mention anything about it can? =X Give me sometime, the wounds will heal,she will be happy,and i will be glad.