Ticket - SGD$42
Taxi fare - RM$20
Ticket - RM$50
The Trip - Priceless
There are some thing that money cant buy.
For every else theres MasterCard
Ops,Im not old enuff to sign up for one.

I've trip back to msia 2nd April.Till next coming Fri/Sun.Anyone wan me buy any present frm msia? Please leave me a Email/tag. =)

Come to think of it, this sat is april fools day.Any plan?

I have to make a public apology..

Somehow...some rumor spread to my ears..
that im the third party between a couple..

Im hereby apologize for any inconvience done to the couples. I have to intention to break u up. I only told her wad i felt for her. But i did not do any thing to disturb her. So here i apologise to that guy..

P.s.-Its a rumor,so i dunno its true anot..

i cant believe that there are realli ppl doing this..johari window & nohari window thingy! Therefore i can hereby analysis some of result.


Johari
brave-Nah..Im timid=/
energetic-sometimes..depends on wad im doing.
friendly-Alot of people say i anti-social
kind-a Little bit mayb?
knowledgeable-No..absolutly not..
modest-Im proud!
observant-On strange things
patient-patient does have its limit..
proud-My way to obtain attention
sentimental-Im a overally emotionally sensitive monster
silly-i'll prefer idiotic bah
trustworthy-how can i be relied

Nohari
timid-Totally me!
cowardly-thats same as timid right?
glum-im not glum,i jus got my mind preoccupied
insecure-one of the things bothering me
unhappy-nah..im jus not interested or thinking abt sth else
distant-I tried to be friendly,but u all backed off...
childish-another thing bothering me..
boastful-i presume its the same as proud?
humourless - Im lack sense of humor meh ?_?


hu·mor·less adj.
Lacking a sense of humor.
Said or done without humor: “She winked at me, but it was humorless; a wink of warning” (Truman Capote).

Above are some of the attribute Not Known to Self.

Its rather interesting...That a number of ppl actually msg me in msn to clarify that they did not backstab me... I duno why they did that, or how they came to the conclusion of "he think im backstabbing him".


But seriously, i think some ppl might be mislead by the previous entry that gurl is wif another guy(who is the fren who backstab me). Im clarifying here that its 2 different matters. That guy who backstab me is not the guy who's snatchin a gurl wif me.

Its been quite sometime...
Holiday Started ( quite some time ago )...
Things happened...

I wish holiday will be over soon...
I wish i can be more paitent...
I wish i can own her...

Even if That really happen,i will still be impossible between me and her.Cause theres another guy for her alrdy.

*wipe the blood off my back*
A stab in the back is worse than falling for a girl *which you have totally no hope of getting her*.

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Since you have stab me in the back,I will work even harder to defeat u in anyway possible.

Please Please Please.. Do not frame me...

I admit i do have feeling for her.

BUT

Do Not , I repeat DO NOT

FRAME ME FOR ATTEMPTING TO BREAK THE COUPLE.

No Matter How much i like/love someone,i will neva attempt to break up a couple.For i dun want such thing to happen on myself as well.

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Guess who i saw ytd??

I saw BRYAN!! The Star Idol Bryan! Cool! But i Regret not taking a photo with him.. =( ..

I am running out of life...someone pls call me out pls =X..

1 week ago
Them:Oh great!Tue we go eat suki..

1 day b4
Them:we dun wan go le..no $$$..

WHAT THE FUCKING BLOODY HELL IS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!

Excuse my rude-ness. Im just very disppointed with some people. Actually alot of people. And it ended up ONLY ME looking forward to this. You shud be ashame of yourself!

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Putting that aside,i have nth to blog abt~!! oh my god!! how !! >.<

Well..Its holiday...And i injured my middle finger once again.(why is it always u who get hurted, burden!)...Hse of the Dead4's a great Game...Im stuck at home...I miss you...I miss the others too..And i Love all of you too..Rest well...

tired tired tired
bored bored bored
miss you miss you miss you
oh man! my aim's horrible =(

I miss those days in secondary school.
I miss the old me.
I want to be back the old me.

How i wish i could go back in time.
Im sick and tired..

I still miss you..

So tired...
So bored...
So sad...

i could still rmb the day...
someon say...
"actually u not bad nia,
only very bad.."

mayb i should change..
look out for the new me,
when sch reopen..

at least,i hope i'd change abit..

After much struggle..I've finally decided to let go...

Mayb..a guy like me does not deserve a girl like her or anyone else.

I've added a new section call "Me(extreme version)"..pls take a look before u leave =)

I though about giving up.
I wanted to give up.
But i dont bear to give up.

BUT

During the chalet,I couldnt figure out the reason I dont bear to let go.
Neither could I think of a reason to cling on to this.

I

Though about wad happened before.
Wad i went thru all these time.

STILL

Cant make up my decision.

DUNNOE

Wether all this is worth it.


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This is wad's going in my mind.
[I wanted to let go and give up,
but i cant bear to let go.]

the worse part is,when i realli wanted to let go so much,she appear in my dream.


I'll be away in chalet until wed,so readers can rest until wed...

why did you keep on doing that,
everytime i was about to give up.
You came along and gave me hope,
in my dreams you appear every night,
only to find myself hurted by you.

im very jealous over sth,and i did cry on my way home.

I've got my result.Rather happy that i pass my fndb.

...(to be continued)

ag.o.ny
1.The suffering of intense physical or mental pain.
2.The struggle that precedes death.
3.A sudden or intense emotion: an agony of doubt.
4.A violent, intense struggle.

I dun find life any part near agony. I merely talk about devotion. I neva mention anything about myself being devoting.Mayb its because of my stupid-ness that blind me from agony.

Yeah! I AM stupid!If not i wouldnt have feelings for someone who alrdy have bf. I'm not doing this jus to prove how much i can be devoted to a person. Y isnt her worth my devotion? If she is the one,y isnt all the devotion worth it?

I cannot say 'I will wait for you',
reason being
1.I cant promise that i am able to perserve under such circumstances without a destiny.
2.To wait,would mean failure in her current relationship. I would want her to be sad.
3.Even if the day I've waited so long comes, it doesnt mean the relationship will work out.
4.If my appearance is able break them up,it would mean someone else could break us up easily in the future.

Neither will i say 'As long as you receive true happiness,I will be happy for you' .
For
1.Im a selfish guy.
2.Im a guy who gets jealous easily

Love is Blind.Love is Selfish.
One says "I love you",he only want her for himself.Holding her in his possesion.

I tot i din blog for a long time..But its jus 2 days. Time really pass very slow.

Things i did for the pass few day.
-Play maple
-Play O2Jam

Im begining to retreive my passion for singing.. I admit i sing pretty badly...but MAYBE i might join the next prjt superstar =) .I'll be very happy jus to pass the 1st prelimary round =). Thats only if they are going to do the 2nd season, and with my current status i can join that.

To those reading this, if you have any webby to dl song Karaok version, can give me the link? =) .. Mayb i might post some of the few songs i recorded ( wif my singing).

i can only come up wif this conclusion..

*I am a selfish oneself who do not deserve anyone.*

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one fine day, i questioned myself.

Since i like her so much,y had i not let her know my feelings?
-she have a bf and i dun wan to disturb her. Im afraid after she learn abt it, she will distance me...
*another question surface*
Den why did you not jus let go?
-becoz i like her...

Since i like her so much,y didnt i stand up for her?
-Im in no position to do that.She have a bf.If i do that wouldnt it be obvious that i like her? And isnt it link to the questin above?

Since i like her so much,y am i feeling so hurt abt?
-I feel sad have to contain everything inside my heart.Hurts me becoz she have a bf,and yet i like her.

I gave excuses.None of the above excuses makes any sense at all.