Its a bored boring lonely new year. And the day of the whole year we fear most is coming . ( for guys like me) Well to make it a special and extraordinarily day for myself, i'm gona write 2 poems, specially dedicated to those ppl that are assoicated to my poem. 2 poems being the reason this "special event" coming up. ppl can only be group in 2 major group. look forward to my new productions =) . It will be complete within 14days including today.

Lonely chinese new year, i spent it playing maplestory.And the mac guy kicked me out 4am in the morning -_-.wth...

how abt trying to fit ur name into the following blanks?
K _ _
_ _ _ _
_ _ _
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
=D

tell me does it fit jus nice?

To Ms dear unknown:

Since u have put it this way, assuming that u did not lie,i am pretty much sure who u are alrdy..
Can i
1.assume u are a gurl
2.assume u are from my class
3.assume ur surname start wif "k"
?

haha..=X..tml ltr goo watch i not tupid~~looking forward to it alot..happy dog year again.

Anyone wan go watch "I not stupid 2" wif me? Those who wan can leave me a sms.. haha =).. but most likely,i'll be going alone, coz... im so detestable that nobody wan to even come close to me to watch movie wif me. haha =X.. anyway...if sms me or leave me a msg if anyone wan to join me..

haha..its only natural that u will deny, haha, but i have the prove that u are the same person. At least change ur ip address b4 attempting that? haha =X

Happy chinese new year to those who reads my blog~~

May u have all ur best luck in everything, relationship,studys,work,health and every other things i did not include here.

I've got my 1st 2 ang bao today,and 1 jus now.So wadz the big deal,ppl are only after the money in the ang bao,makes not much difference.. coz all my relative are in msia, so DO come looking for me if u wanna go out on sunday -> tuesday.

TO->??? :
"wah..so many girl in ur list...don focus on those impossible...it will make u look flirt... i think focus on those possible is the best..."
Im actually a very faithful guy de..if u know me previously.. haha..i dun look flirt, i look more like a ball of meat . I jus like them, i neva say ath abt relationship.Im not looking in a relationship. Esp this kind of stuff,its a 2 directional stuff, i like her,but she dun like me, wads the point? To me, a relationship is like a friendship wif a fren of the opposite gender, but the relationsihp is stronger than the average fren. so until i find the one wif a return route,getting into a relationship might not realli cross my mind.


TO->unknown :
"den who is tht?"
wad are u trying to say there? who is the "who" u are refering to?

haha...i only say "i think", i not sure wether is you anot. haha..The 6th ger is not weiyi,thats the previous 4th position gurl. hahax..

Jus to confirm my answers-
are you a gurl?

if u can answer me this, i'll appreciate alot =P

Lets review the list again..

1st-A ger from my class
2nd-A ger not from my class
3rd-A ger not from my class
4th-A ger from my class
5th-A ger not from my class
6th-A ger from my class
7th-A ger not from my class

Guess wad?! i've added 2 more person to my list! haha jus jking ard..those 2 ppl are jus people who we have contact for more than 2 time b4, but they dunno who i am. One common things are, they are fren of my fren. I dun realli like them nia..its jus hai hao only, but the other ger is the type of ger the i like. Seriously, i dunno why nia, shes those type of ger that i'll fall for..No point asking me who she is, coz i dunno her name, she dunno me, we met b4,i think someone know abt it.There is oso someone who is the type of ger i like, but i heard from her fren,my ex-classmate, that she got bf..so i drop her off, mayb becoz i dun get much contact wif her,so its easier to forget.. hahax...

Average thursday wif something out of average done . Had a test,went for a lecture tag along wif uncles for shopping..

Test average going hard. I misunderstood the question, and i got myself a wrong answer, Q3 ,i wasnt able to display the last column as well. The rest i can select and insert and create. So i dunno i correct anot, better safe than sorry..Better start preparing for exam le...

Went to OOPG lecture, becoz i tagging along wif the uncles to buy clothings..The lecture is erm...boring...dotz...

Went to bugis->penisular plaza->city mall->suntec
Our uncle andy bought a Tee and a Jean.
Our uncle Steven bought 3 Tee and 1 surfer pants.(if i rmb correctly)
Our uncle Jim bought a jeans,2 tee,a surfer pants.

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I feel that the distance between is getter bigger...It was closer before, or it had neva been close before...wadever u like,i cant force anything into you..i'll jus hope u receive wad u realli wan. But i still reserve my right to like you.

Wednesday, im bored~~... wad i did today ar...alot of things...wanted to apologize to someone, =X accidentally flip the vegetable onto someone's leg...hope she dun hate me for that... Den...someone and someone got their hair cut,and DEN nth to say liao...i...i... i dunno lar...im SO DaMn BoReD!!! -_-

So many things i wanna tok abt...so many things i forgot wanna say...exam coming..have to start studying for fndb and carc. My "fren" told me, "since u can rmb things well by understanding how the logic words like maths, y dun u use that kind of understanding into those subjects?" i dunno whether that will work, but its worth a try.. at least i know i can take focus off oopg and cmaths and focus more on this 2 sub..

seriously, anonymous do u mind getting straight to the point and tell me wad u r trying to say?

If((u see this) && (if u dun mind))
{
Please use simpler english and get straight to the point;
}

IMPORTANT-Please Take Note
If u wan me to coach u all for java, pls tell me before this Friday. Because Im making a study schedule for the upcoming exam.If no one approach me in before, i will assume that no oopg coaching is needed, and i will not entertain anyone who ask me to do java coaching.

Arghhhhh!!!!! i Need a FREAKING BREAK MAN!!! I tell u this straight in ur face 45.5 Is no Fucking big deal oke! stop bugging me wif that stupid shit!

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Java prjt due tml morning 10am.I got myself a lagging computer, flooding in msn...its not i dun like that, but i find that its a little irritating, coz here im trying to do my prjt and there u are flooding me and dropping me questions......and i hate it , i repeat this, if u are asking a question, mind your manners, and stop nudging me! I AM a human! I need time to THINK as well! -_-.

I'm predicting sometime similar 1 sem ago is goin to happen once again. I rmb when prsp-ing , esp the alice part, ppl come to me to ask me for help, after the alice assignment, the distance enlarged. Gimmi this though that they are making use of me. the though... i dunno nia...but its true, after the prsp thingy , we like neva communicate at all ( seems to me so ).

This time is OOPG, i helped others , dunno y i even bothered ... I can jus simply ignore them and jus continue wif my own prjt..jus dun wan to see them fail, i see them as frens nia..and sth sth sth else..ahhaha..i better get back to java, if not i think quite a number of ppl will fail the prjt...=X

yup! i like them becoz i like them.As simple as that.No relationship attached.Simple frens may a be, a jus classmate may it be, but not a gf.Esp when they have bf.

21 Jan 06, 11:02
???: don put too much hope on those tat are impossible..even if they got bf they will devotely like them..trying finding those tat have hope(like those without bf)

dotz....i know wad u're trying to say, but as i mention in my previous post, i have no thoughs of goin into a relationship, with anyone inside OR outside the list. i like them becoz i like them, no reasons. As simple as that.

nameless speaks in the name of angeline, i assume so as she is the only on who asked abt the list... Well.. i'll jus assume that u know who the 1st ger is ...but 1 thing u have to know, not everything will go the way u wan it to go. And oso, to like someone is not to get control over that person or to have that someone, but it is to knowing that she find happiness .. I only know how to say that,but i neva realli know how to do that.. i only say this, i like them becoz i like them, im not thinkin of goin in relationship wif anyone of them. although 3/5 of them have bf alrdy. Even if i realli wan to go into relationship wif anyone,i dun think anyone will be able to accept the fact that i like them.

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well..i tried to rec my singing...2 english songs,3 chinese songs, and when i listen,i got stunned..my singing truly realli suck! And i cant believe so many ppl actually said "your singing not bad mah" ...mayb u all jus trying to console me ... =/ ...

Sucky day in school...prjt rushing period in progress... I've got myself a pretty gd deal, i help sean do oopg, he help me do fndb! Swee! nice sia...I LOVE JAVA!!! Like Hell...i hate the thinking part like freaking shit!

i watching bleach episode 64 in sch...completed another agency when those stupid ppl went to help out in the sch opening When they can use it to do their prjt. wth...

i realli dunno how to help them...I feel terrible...over something....I was faced wif the most stupid situation in the world, i will not like hell put it here, but i'll tell u i did sth wrong, i exposed off the list of ppl from 2nd place ->5th place... Well if u know who the 1st place is, u will understand wad the hell im facing...

I know they might feel like abit weird if they know i like them, esp wif such a freaking long list...and esp someone like me....you wo zhe zhong ren xi huan,mei she me zhi de hao xin... a real fact stating...

p.s. u alrdy got 2 person off the list of ppl, who do u think the 1st person can be? pls use ur brain...thank you.

cmsk conversation circle sucks
fndb lab sucks
evrything up to now sucks...

OOPG's a piece of cake,
FNDB's a piece of SHIT!

omg...im having a terrible headache...and i've gotten a lot of free songs =) thx guys

I have a list of ger which i like...

the current favourism list
1st place : a Ger from my class
2nd place : a Ger from not from my class
3rd place : a Ger from my class
4th place : a Ger from my class
5th place : a Ger from not from my class

i have no intention of telling anyone,coz it will do no one any gd. i love them all...every single one of them...but 1st place de ger, u took off most of my heart...kept my heart in captive.. but i ended up in wrong track and dropping of bits and pieces of love here and there...hua xin u can say it is...until the day i truly get ur love, Or the day where i finally am willing to give up for love...i will continue to drop bits and pieces here and there...legthening the list...

5 inidividuals

if you have been smelling a scent of heavy sour smell,
dun doubt,
its me!

im get overly jealous over soooo many things...they seem like small things that doesnt realli matters, and it makes me such a bastard... u can say im selfish, but it doesnt matter to me... im jus trying to express out my emotions in words, to avoid rumors or conflict wif anyone...

having flu for the pass few days,
took flu medicine for 2 night,
i feel very terrible on the nex morning,
so im not gonna take medication tonight.

and i jus wanna tell
her &
her &
her &
her
, i love all of you...
4 different ppl,
i like them all,
but u're the one wif the largest share of my love.

very very very sleepy now...
i've been bloggin quite alot recently...
but all is usless stuff...
i din request that it u read it..

Something i wanted to tell someone,
"you're cute!"
"It feels great,instead of pain."
"I feel so hurt."
"I've always love you"

But i wun tell it to her,
nor will i tell anyone who the "she" is..
But i almost loss self-control see wad he did to her...

and

I still see ppl goin the distance to avoid me.

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wadever...if u hate me so much...go ahead and hate me more...i'll jus remove the possibility of having to befriend wif you.U know who u are.Im not gonna say it.

Goin thru a series of hard time now...
have a terrible nose block...
strugglin to do my oopg... ( finally finish my agency)
havin not enuff energy to sustain my daily activites...
im so shag....
my mind is goin wild again...
someone keep on appearing in my mind...
i din do well for my termtest...
i shall study for my exam!
and strife for my prjt!

and for the 1st time, the flu medicine actually worked!!!
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forget it....
i still get over the fact that some ppl hate me so much that they will go the distance jus to avoid me...or jus simply keeping a safe distance from me, as if im a virus........

wadever...im goin to sleep liao...
throw the bad memory away...
a new day is ahead!

night cycling.......
fun....
not as fun as i expected...
we ride damn slow...
my leg muscle cramp on 1 uphill slope...
we played stupid game...
we have to stop at the stupid check point at bedok reservoir...
we have to wait at the stupid bike shop to take photo...
actually...a lot of things goin thru my mind during the night cycling...
dun feel like toking abt it...

i fell asleep on the bus and i dreamt dat im playin badminton,
i flip the racket( which is my phone i holding) , and my phone
flew to the front and hit someone.luckily i woke up when my
phone leave my hand, if not... haha...

p.s.Im sry to have make sudden stop here and there, coz if i dun stop,i'll bang into the person infront of me....pls forgive me..

Special post to "unknown's Question"

no one, not at the current moment...
though i do have shaken feelings for someone, but...
dun have anyone bahz... haha

Its 12.33am ( way pass my usual sleeping time )...
16 freaking mins to finish dling my bleach...
25freaking mins to laze in my bed and listen to music....
447 freakin mins to my nex lesson in sch...

no idea when im gona stop breathing...

things goin thru my mind...
my maths result...my life....its in such a mess....
i cant get on to my studies well...
i cant even get "Focus" into playin maple...
i am such a useless person....

I wanna change...
i promise to be a better man for someone...
BUT---
wad is the meaning of being a better man.
i made a promise to someone when i dun even know how to fulfill my promise...
i failed terribly...

I have someone small crushes on some ppl...
it'll end soon...

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i guess ....

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Im not gd enuff for anyone...
im so terrible that ppl even tried to avoid me...
im so detestable that when ppl see me,their face emotion blackens immediately...

im not pushing blames here...
im sry for the faults i carry...
im sry for wad i did that make u react that way...

tell me wad u hate so much in me...
tell me wad make u avoid me so purposely...
tell me wad is in me that dullen ur day...

I'll try to change...

I need some attention...
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but..


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leave me alone for sometime...
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I'll be better after a sob...
*sniff*...

Konbanwa!!! Watashi wa Wei Hau San desu! Doozo yoroshiku! Watashi wa anata no totemo ga suki desu!

Lol...jus feeling bored... I wanted someone to unbored me... I dunno if it is realli called love, i jus wan someone who i can share my likes wif...Its not like i have many choice.. recently see a lot of gers that is that kind that i like...But i duno them, neither do my frens...Even if know oso no use...haha... i shall remain silence... until the day i find the one who appreciate me ... will that day even arrive... haha...

and thats XiaoHau signing off.

P.s. i gonna buy that chain nex week.

My 1st post in Year 2006 ( i suppose )

Wad've past has past.Let bygones be bygones.
Dun wanna tok abt last year's sad stuff liao.

Recently a lot stuff went on.. dun realli wanna tok abt it though... There are times where things set me thinking. Am i realli such a horrible person? I know some ppl think so... I can see de lor , DUH.. Isnt it seriously , freaking obvious?! Do i look like i have strange disease that when u sit beside me u will die OR sth lidda. Theres freaking 3 seats available beside me LOR. DUH ..

wadever..dun wanna tok abt it liao...

The other day i saw my ex-guitar fren.Shes in business sch i think.I got a crush on her previously, neva told her. Den the freaky-est thing that happen is...

1.she see me,
2.she stare at me,
3.she *wave* at me.

Thats something, no one have even done to me ( my jyss fren in TP ) until now.

Den...

Oh yeah...I saw someone during the Will@TP jog , she look realli realli realli realli cute... haha...cannot blame nia, i like that kind of dress sense.. sad thing is she got stead, SO ... nth can be done...

I loss motivation..i need someone to come into my life, and pick me up, gimmi the motivation.

P.S.The nex time we meet , i'll be a better man.