everything is such pain in the ass...
PAIN IN THE ASS!!
..no comment to wad happened..
nothing really happened..
thats the reason!
thats why im so sad..
so bored..
so .. hai ... . .. ... .... .. .
T_T ...
Go Slp better

everything is such pain in the ass...
PAIN IN THE ASS!!
..no comment to wad happened..
nothing really happened..
thats the reason!
thats why im so sad..
so bored..
so .. hai ... . .. ... .... .. .
T_T ...
Go Slp better

hai...
Mayb .. i shud have to sit down ...
and start thinking about my future..
..
I look at other ppl, they have such bright future ahead of them,
i look at myself, i see a cliff and i will fall off any moment..
...
i want to change every part of myself..
i cant get myself out of my shell..
Im so enclosed to myself..
...
Attention!
I Want Attention!!
I WANT ATTENTION!!
>_<
I want everyone's Attention!
but i guess they'll jus ignore me..
Im jus like a stone by the road..
so..
when do ppl look at the stones by the road when they are driving?
=/ ..
..
I din work gd enuff hur?
How do i work?
wad do i have to do?
wad is GD ENUFF??
U tiao me!?
cmon! Tiao me!
=.= ..
My mum keep on complaining abt my studies..
and i cant seem to do well in ath..
studies = sucks;
games = sucks;
sports = sucks ;
communcate = sucks big time;
=.= ...
Is there even 1 single thing i can do well ...
Mayb ..
I shud jus stop doing everything ...
Jus ...
Stop everything im doing...
every .. little ... thing ..
every .. single ... thing ..
..
I know there are ppl's life that is far worse than me
But .. i keep on having this thought that,
perhaps .. my time is close ...
..
i wan to treasure everything around me ..
..
This is like some kind of psychological struggle going on in me ..
Stressed?
I have plenty of them ..
Release stress?
How?
Im one that crumbles easily under stress..
I can alrdy feel the stress ..
wad can i do? wad can i do? wad can i do?
...
I want ..
I want ..
I duno wad i want ...
I know wad i want..
But i dun know how to say it..
Its something that i might never have the chance to experience ..
Hai ...T-T ...

hai...Hai...HAI...
T-T.....
very sad nia ...
today super long day ...
none of the lesson are up to standard..
all is super boring ..
I regreted not doing sth..
I.. shud ...Jus go all out ..
And do it ..
=x...
Haiii ... >___<
So Sad nia ....
Qouted from a Magazine "Teen" 2001 XXX edition
"I'm so sad i can't find a stead. Its because of my look"
..
This quote describes me so well man!!!
=x ..
At least i figured out that at some ppl do not meant wad they say..
They jus say it to fu yan me onli ..
*Some ppl arr.. =x .. not all

the macdonal spillage
&
The ownage of the lizard...
=.= ..
I went to mac ...
den i spilled the drink in macdonald =.=
WTH!!! Not again!!! T-T ......
Luckily they got gib me replacement..
(i can be a gd waiter, onli if i get to arrage the stuffs on the tray..)
..
And the blardy lizard =.= ...
it jump onto my hand...
and off onto the wall...
And i carnt believe i screamed...
of course the guy way.. >_< ..
Its damn scary ...
>____< ....
...
Now is SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSD lect ..
WTH @_@....
darn sian nia =( ..

Im getting so restless these days ..
i cant get my mind to foucs on my studies..
All i cud think abt are girls = = ..
I know its lame ..
but i keep on having these strange + stupid thoughts..
and the more i think, the more depress i get..
haii ...
T-T ...
I .. .wann .. something nice too !! >__<
how i feel like..
jus shouting "Go Fuck urself in the ass" to those ppl asking me for help ..
"GO FUCK URSELF IN THE ASS!!"
Im jus another everyday average Tom Dick Harry .. Haii ...
"GO FUCK URSELF IN THE ASS!!!!!!" >_<

DIU lar! =_=
wad kind of a fucking is this ..
Fuck Fuck Fuck!
Thats all i get to say..
I dun wan to say anymore else..
And the fucking MSN got problem.
And i cant get any fucking help..
And WAD THE FUCK!
I NEED HELP,AND HELP IS NOT AVAILABLE FROM ANYONE
WAD THE BLOODY FUCK!
= = ...
AND
i hab to hand in the cmsk intro TML!!
WTH...
Someone Kill Me !!
T_T ..
I dun like being same class as the ELITES!!
arghh!!! =(

awww....
im so darn slppyy >__<..
today play cs in lab ...
den technician come in ...
den i think.. "so suay.. this time have to give 50 bucks liao -____________-"
T-T ..
but myy fren gan zai lo....
kana caught by the same guy dunno how many time..
haiiiii...
but luckily i use lappie playy =x ...
den sommore i took the utp cable out ..
den i pretend i useing wireless nor .. ... .. . .. . >___<
..
not say i bad niaa ...
my fren all 1st timer .. no problem ..
but me 2nd time need pay money...
den 3rd time expel liao...
waaa...
dam scare nia ...
luckily i can still play on my lappie =x ..
at least feel better abit...

yeah~~
after long long long long long time~
i finally gotten my very own lappie ^^
SOoooo happy =x ...
Nth more to blog abt lol ...
btw...
i cannot stand the blardy noob,
who go into other ppl's cs game,
and join the bots -_- ..
its damn gay lo ..
if i host, every game i jus kill all bots den all player will aim him..
darn idiot..
blardy screener .. =

*yawn*
today went to SIANtosa..
its quite fun nia ..
expect the part being i dun have extra clothing
den missed out all the fun...
..
den im like
sitting ard ..
den very sian = // ..
luckily got boon seng pei me nia =x ..
better den all alone nor ..
left @ 3 ..
reach home @ 8..
-___-ll...
getting to harbour front MRT is hard enuff..
and LATE enuff ..
So me and dunno who and dunno who ( i realli dunno their name >.< )
went to vivo to walk..
Man! i <3 the designer =) ..
...
they keep saying find gf walk vivo =x ..
so any ger willing to be my temporary gf to tour ard vivo city? =x=x
i guess not .. haha ...
i NEED my BEAUTY SLEEP!! >_< ...
but cannot slpp .. haii ..
SIAN LARR!!! =(

i seriously need get into a mpg ..
b4 everyone get taken ..
=( ..
Stress Stress Stress arr ...
I have to work hard lerr =( ..
HAI!!!!! T-T ...
Stopping and looking back ..
i still myself standing at the same spot..
as the past few month,
as a year b4 those past few month ..
...
Hai...
i still having myself having problem getting along wif ppl
T-T....
Still cannot mix together well wif others ...
..
be confident ..
how to be confident
when theres nothing i can be confident abt..
=( ..
this sucks =( ...
T-T ....

haii ...
12.44 ... AM ..
thats something nice..
im actually bloggin .. (actually i din realli felt like doing so..)
i finally see the money comin into my bank account ..
after paying off *Some* of my depts ..
*eyeing on the cheque*..
Still waiting for mediaCorp's cheque to come ~~
=( .. i top scorer for 2 games norr!!
onli gimmi 100 dollr .. T-T ...
...
hope can get a lappie sooner ...
....
went to get some vodka .. ( i thinks thats the spelling)
den reach home ... den realise got left over ..
den overdrank ...
In the middle of broad daylight -_-ll..
den when wake up .. my fingers swell like hell .. -_- ..
and hurts like hell =( ..
..
and kana a few cut on my hand
by my penknife ...
*ouchs * ...
tml have lesson again ...
HAI.....