bad life..

perhaps..
the reason ..
why im such a failure ..
is becus,
im a mistake to began with..
and ..
i started to recall of things ..
my parent told me ..
and ..
it jus hurt me so much ..
to be someone's
mistaken..
and ..

and i felt ..
my existance ..
is ..
so worthless ..
and..
that with or without it,
it doesnt matter to anyone ..

but ..
its just makes me feel a thousand times better ..
jus by looking at you ..
even thou ..
i dun look as thou im feeling anything..
but ..
having you beside me ,
looking at you,
realli .. makes me feel a million times better..

tired..

theres no point
to continue with anything
itsif theres not gonna be any result.

im realli tired ..

but ..

i like ..
the way you talk ..
the way you called my name ..
the way you react when i tried to disturb you..
but ..
i dun like ..
the way eu ignored me ..
the way you get me attention and walk away ..
the way the things are between us now ..
the way you make me feel like im such a insignifcant character in your life ..

hug me ..

i had my day ..
staring at eu when ever i cud..
and
all that is in my mind ..
is jus wanting to hug you..
tightly
and
never
let
you
leave
my
sight ..

please ..
give me a hug ..

wad i wan

throw me away..
but please give me my heart back..

你可以抛弃我，
但把我的心还给我..

hug me ..

痛苦

暗恋
的结果
只有
痛苦
和
伤痛
而已。。

我只想紧紧地抱着你，
永远不让你离开我的视线。。

throw and return

im jus another
unless guy
whose existance is so insignificant
and yet
wasting away the resources ..

throw me away ..
but give me my heart back..

stressed ..

i've got ..
so stressed up ..
so much stuff to do ..
cmsk4 ( finished this morning)
Wts (due fri, onli part 1 done)
ENT (email by wed, havent start at all)
FYP ( need to show sth by wed.. waste the whole of tue)
and the deprieve of slp ..
is killing me ..

i brought all this upon myself..
and i screw everything up..
and i apologize to my group member..
my failure to do my job as a group leader..
And my own failure to bring myself to start working
and drag everything to last minute
im so sorry..
and cause so much trouble for everyone ..
sorry ..

dead line

deadline to meet,
submission to meet,
and im worked to the brim,
give me a nice long rest ..
im in the
sady sady poetic mood..
but ..
tons of stuff i have to do..
but ..
i jus cant seem to focus ..
i dunno its me or wad ..

im starting to feel like ..
im the root of every dissappointment,
every disagreement,
everything bad ..

and i realli do hope things will get better everything
and everyone will not give up
(but i guess i'd be the 1st one to do so)
i need a break badly..

from school..
from assignment..
from my emotions ..

if music be the food of love ........

the dliff

hai ..
jus when i tot i was feeling better ..
the feeling of sadness..
starts coming back to haunt me..
and all of a sudden ..
everything started
turning into black and white ..
and that ..
there isnt a future for me..
a life like that of walking down the road ..
where ..
wads on the other side ..
is nothing but jus a cliff..
and all i cud do when i reach the cliff is
to jump rite off it ..

how big?

How big is Santa's sack?
I'd sure hope its big enuff to fit you in,
i'd like to have you to be my xmas present.
(:
<3s you

moltivate-less

theres tons of stuff that im suppose to be doing,
but there isnt enuff moltivation
to get me starting..
my mind's jam up
totally
with you..
and the times we spend together..

sicked

i felt so ..
sick ..

Im .. so tired ..

things,
when stuff inside too long ..
will only hurt more if left growing..
but it will hurt even more ..
if you let it out..
there seem to be like absolutly
no way for me to get better.

The way the table has turn..
has totally changed against me..

its just something that is so simple..
so simple that
its so hard to get hold of it.

day in and day out..
my life felt as thou i was bagging a huge stone upon me..
that slows me down in everything i do..
and the slower it gets..
the more i felt the pressure to catch on ..
but ..
and the more my mind wander off..
into realms which its not suppose to be..

its all my fault..
for not being able to focus on things i shud be..
for having feelings of affection for someone who i shud have..
for seeing every little thing you do, and magnifying it to tink about it..
for my inability to do things better den you..
for my disability to be able to control my own emotions..

im ..
so tired ..
until my emotions got drain until the point where ..
i felt so numb ..
but ..
it took one day ..
for this emotions to come right back to haunt me ..

I dont know how you think about me ..
but i know ..
i will
nv be a person you will look up to..
nv be a person you will come to (when you need someone to talk to)..
mayb .. nv be the one for you ..

I'd tried my best to let go ..
but ..
it hurt as badly as pulling a arrow out of your heart..

i have so much more i'd wanted to keep on typing..
but ..
theres no point to keep it on..
no matter how much i type,
and what i type,
it doesnt change the fact
that i am
a true failure..

Fren? or wad?

i believed,
it'd those ppl who is called
fren,
behaved more like
acquaintance..

small hearted

i dont have a big heart,
its small,
realli small
which is onli big enuff for one person
and that person is you.
i know theres no point typing these here,
but there no where else i cud express out.
even if you were reading this
it wud be very unlikely to make any difference..
i'd realli want to have your love ..
so .. so .. much..

whats the point?

Whats the point of doing sth,
if it doesnt make a difference?
i dont see the point,
but i still see myself
doing these stupid thing.
wads the point?

my Love

an empty street
an empty house
a hole inside my heart
i'm all alone and the rooms are getting smaller

i wonder how,
i wonder why
i wonder where they are
the days we had, the songs we sang together
and oh my love
i'm holding on forever
reaching for a love that seems so far

so i say a little prayer
and hope my dreams will take me there
where the skies are blue
to see you once again,
my love over seas from coast to coast
to find the place i love
the most where the fields are green
to see you once again,
my love

i try to read
i go to work
i'm laughing with my friends
but i can't stop to keep myself from thinking

i wonder how, i wonder why
i wonder where they are the days
we had, the songs we sang together
and oh my love
i'm holding on forever
reaching for a love that seems so far

to hold you in my arms
to promise you my love
to tell you from the heart
you're all i'm thinking of
i'm reaching for a love that seems
so far

---

A realli beautiful song from Weslife,
althou old,
its a song so full of emotions..
which partly signify my feeling..

Football Match pick[22 nov]

23:00 , Armenia vs Kazakhstan
Kazakhstan @ +1 -hit
over 2.25 - miss

23:30 , Georgia vs Lithuania
Georgia @ -0.5 -miss
under 2.25 - miss(H)

00:00 , Romania vs Albania
Romania @ -1.5 - Hit
over 2.75 - Hit

00:30 , Cyprus vs Czech Republic
Czech Republic -0.5 - Hit
under 2.75 - Miss

01:00 , Azerbaijan vs Belgium
Belgium @ -0.5 - Hit
under 2.5 - Hit

01:00 , Belarus vs Netherlands
Netherlands @ -0.5 -miss
over 2.25 - Hit

01:00 , Israel vs FYR of Macedonia
Israel @ -0.75 -Hit(H)
over 2.25 - Miss

01:00 , Slovenia vs Bulgaria
Slovenia @ lvl - Miss
under 2.25 - Hit(H)

03:00 , Denmark vs Iceland
Denmark @ -1.75 -Hit
under 3 - Draw

03:00 , Malta vs Norway
Norway @ -2 - Hit
under 3.25 - Hit

03:00 , Spain vs N.Ireland
Spain @ -1.5 - Miss
over 2.75 - Miss

03:00 , Sweden vs Latvia
Sweden @ -1.75 -miss
over 2.75 - hit (H)

03:00 , Turkey vs Bosnia
Bosnia @ +2 - Hit
under 3 - Hit

03:30 , Germany vs Wales
Germany @ -1.75 -Missed
under 3 - Hit

03:30 , Italy vs Faroe Islands
Italy @ -3.25 - Miss
over 4.25 - Miss(H)

03:30 , Ukraine vs France
France @ -0.25 - Miss
under 2.25 - Miss

03:45 , Portugal vs Finland
Portugal @ -1.25 -Miss
over 2.25 - Miss

03:45 , Serbia vs Poland
Poland @+0.75 - Hit
over 2.25 - Hit

04:00 , Andorra vs Russia
Russia @ -3 -missed
over 3.75 - missed

04:00 , England vs Croatia
England @ -1 - Missed
over 2.25 - Hit

15 Hits, 3 Hit (h)
17 Miss,2 Miss (h)
1 Draw

Good luck! (:

things to do?

i wanna get my hair cut
cut botak =x
but..
i need some advise?

and i want to donate blood,
althou i dunno my blood type,
and i scare if someone going to use my blood,
he/her will die of either
over cholestrol or over emotion
=x

i need a break

mayb?

mayb wad i tot in the 1st place
the 0.01% logic was wrong,
but rather shud be 0%?
and since its a sure fail result,
y do i even bother?
hmm..
and when things happen,
i can onli sallow it down
and make myself suffer..

fact and fiction

the best time for healing,
is you are nothing thinking abt anything,
and the onli possibility is that you are dead.

i dun think how things is
and im trying my best to change,
but theres nothing i can do,
but conform to the current situation
until things get better.

Football Match pick[21 nov]

21 nov , 01.30 - South Africa vs Canada
Canada @ +1/4 - missed
under 2.25 - hit (H)

21 Nov , 03.45 - Switzerland vs Nigeria
Nigeria @ +1/2 - hit (F)
under 2.5 - hit (F)

21 Nov , 06.40 - Venezuela vs Bolivia
Bolivia @ +1 -missed
under 2.5 - missed

21 Nov , 08.50 - Colombia vs Argentina
Agentina @-0.75 -missed
over 2.25 - hit (F)

我们的歌（小豪version）

已经听了一百遍
怎么听都不会sian
从白天唱到黑夜
你没有在身边(没有在身边)

如果世界太危险
只有爱你最痛苦
带着我进梦里面
让我的梦实现

无论是悲哀还是难过
我的爱永远不变

不论是心痛还是头痛
我的爱永远不变
所有美好回忆记在心里
说了句forever love那么深
我们的歌那么真
不过界跨时代再不会叫kissgoodbye
有没有一句能够让你爱我
aw aw

情人总分分合合
可是我们却越离越远
认识你让我的幸福
如此悦耳

能不能不要记得
继续唱我们的歌
让感动一辈子都记得
---
the above are edited for fun
with the adaptation of my life story
credit goes to the reader and singer of the song,
support original! :)

tired

tiring day..
came home with almost no energy left =/
decided not to go to feedback session..
not as if its going make any difference wether im going anot
and oso due to the fact that there MP meeting.
and i do not want to make things troublesome for her..
:) ..
seem to me like i've rid of my moody-ness>_>
i think?

no use jus stuffing everything inside myself,
and hurt myself.
i shall get my voice heard!
and i will

alone with the reservoir

went to reservoir alone..
had some one to one time wif the reservoir..
even thou i was so tired..
i was so unmoltivated ..
run run run..
stop and walked..
and i started talking to myself..
to get myself moltivated..
and i start running..
i start to say sth like..
if i can get myself thru all the mental torture,
wads this little tiring feeling considered?
:/

and i starts to see..
wad is realli happening..
and i finally understand that..
im jus totally consumed by my own feeling..
Jealousy..
and y am i so jealous?
becus
i cared for her too much,
yet im doing so much things that wud hurt her.
im so sorry..
and i will try my best to change.
forgive me,
and give me a chance.

lab..

im ..
alone in the lab..
doing my wts project..
i have no choice but to do..
but theres no mood..
or moltivation either..

please moltivate me alittle..
when will things ever get better for me..

always on my mind

lesson time,
half way thru,
you're always on my mind..
:(

*concentrate!*

nothing came out

i've got so much to say..
but when i open my mouth,
nothing came out..

is it good?
or is it bad?

i dunno..
i cant tell..

i am

im a little heart broken boi

..

wads the point..

..

im exhausted..

..

Please give my empty shell a break..

Tiger,Benko and Me

Once upon a time theres a little white tiger












And it climbed on top of my laptop









And it climbed onto my shoulder to scratch my mole..
Noo~~ X.X












And it almost ate benko up.. =x












so i picked Benko up..












And i decided to take a picture of my own!












The End!

No tiger,benko,people were being scratch/eaten in the production
thanks :D

link

some link i post a few years ago

link number 1

link number 2

so feel free to take a look :)

sweet dream..

had a short nap this morning..
thou it was short..
but..
it sure is sweet,,
just sitting down there..
and me hugging you tight..
and us enjoying the moment together..

我只想紧紧地抱着你，
永远不让你离开我的视线.

But.. i still have to wake up afterall..
for its jus a dream..
which i hope will come true =)

势不两立

你可以和我抢任何东西，
唯有她，
我愿与全世界势不两立。

1.5 months left

i shud now..
focus on my things ..
get my things done..
i shud learn to take things more seriously..
but ..
my mind still..
is pack with you..

i will..
finish wad i have to finish by this year end.
Love!
give me ur power,
and let me pass this 1 . 5 month
finish wad im suppose to do..
and give me your love..

eh..

is there ..
nothing else we can talk abt?
nothing other den project stuff?
i shud blame myself..
for not initializing the conversation..
but..
i cant think of anything we can talk abt..
my mind is totally occupied
by you..
and you onli..
everything i see,
reminds me of the time we spent together..
and it eventually ends up to you..
我已经走火入魔，无法自拔，深深的爱上你了

i.. i love you

i beg you, princess
Your smile is prettier than anybody else's.
I should not have hurt you,
please forgive me.
However,
I cannot control my feelings anymore.
I.. I love you

a dream and a fact

after a few slpless nite..
i finally fell aslp..
and i had the most wonder dream abt her
but..
its all nothing
but a dream..
after i wake up..
i'll still have to face the fact..
the feeling is like a bug..
feeling on my soul..
leaving me empty ..
i want you..
i need you..
i love you..

but i guess..
theres nothing in the future for us..
but the desire for you is so great
that jus plaining abt think abt it
hurts me so much..
its all my fault..
i sorry for falling for you..
but..
i've nv regreted any part of it..
and i do wan thing to get back to the way it was ..

i dont understand

i dont understand why
its jus a simple question
and you have to give me such a reply..

am i simply so detestable
that you have to do this to me?
and i tot tings has gotten better btw us..
or mayb im jus too petty..
:( ..
it simply hurts..

i guess..
its all my problem..
sorry..

memories, gap, hurt ..

was out with my frens ..
and as we go alone..
memories came back..
it brings me back to a year ago..
when we go out..
and the more this memories..
it started to show..
how much things can changed..

i'd rather things turn back to a year b4..
when theres almost anything we can talk abt..
and now we hardly talk,
let alone seeing each other..

i got consumed by my own emotions..
i expected too much things from you..
becus you worth so much to me that..
that a little less attention from
will make my life go totally out of balance..

despite wad you say..
wad happend over the pass few weeks..
onli showed that our gap has gotten bigger..
and bigger..
Or simple fact..
that im behaving way too childish..

i truly want you,
even thou i know im not worthy of you,
but you're the onli one that im willing to die for..
i realli love you..

but
i know..
i'll nv be the one for you..
neither am i good enuff for you

but i can say it out out..
that im willing to give up anything for you.
and you onli..

I want you

so much things going thru my mind ..
and it always end up in the same place..
why did i even fall for someone,
who had alrdy made things clear in the first place?
and when did i end up in the picture?

i dunno..
i jus know that ..
wad i felt at this moment,
is real,
real enuff to take my life away
i want you, I want you, i WANT you,
I want you so much,
that its the onli thing im willing to lost my life for.
but i know,
it eventually end up with nothing..
and so..
i want to treasure
every single moment
i get to spend with you.

why did you wake up?

why did i wake up?
why?
why?
i'd like to know the answer as well..
theres not one thing in life
that cud moltivate me to keep on going
when
wad comes after a dream, is jus another nightmare
continued from ytd..
and is nv ending..

i cant stop complaining abt stuff..
i wanted thing to change.
by not everything can be changed by pure hard work.
and theres nothing i cud do
but jus live on with it..

mayb wad the onli reason i wake up..
is becus of love?
i dunno..
becus its like so unreachable
so close, yet so far..

i know im in no position for anything ..
thats why im trap in this dead lock of suffering..
until one day i finally let go ..

plain jealousy

its jus plain jealousy im facing today..
i shud reflect on my behavior..
it feels weird when you are so close to the others..
and i would have rather be the one to suffer
den you see the both of you quarrel..
mayb the grping is one of my greatest mistake..
mayb ..
im still caught up with wad im with since ytd..
forgive me ..
you do mean alot to me.
the both of you.

倒流

可以把时间倒流吗，
把时间带回
到我和她相遇之前，
到我还没那么在乎之前，
到我还没深深爱上她之前。

那是我们都回不去的从前。
那段我们相处快乐的时光。

waiting for lesson

im waiting for lesson outside the LT..
im afraid of wad im about to face..
someone give me some moral support..
hai..

reason.

some says
everything we do, theres a reason behind it.
so i hope..
wad i did today..
will help me..
do accomplish wad i want to do..
its a struggle..
to let go..
and ..
it truly hurts..
im sorry..
fren..

you wun know the reason for me doing it,
and i wun tell you y either,
jus give me some time..
i dun want to be trap in my own
world..
with my stupid emotions
flowing all over the place..
forgive me ..

the Sign

sign of being desperate of help

number 1: emo
number 2: posting like 3~5 blog entry in a day


nice observation,
but wad i post here
doesnt make a difference.
this is onli a place
where i can vent my
angers, and sufferings
and complains
and there will not be any responses.

and im truly thankful,
for the ppl who are always there for me
and cared for me.
Thanks.

too much..

if u can see..
this is the 3rd post im typing continuously
published seperately..

i jus want to say that..

Im not like this because i dont care,
but is because i cared way to much.
way too much ..

nothing.. nothing at all

i noe
theres no point in saying anything here,
or
jus keeping everything inside me..
becus,
no matter wad i do,
no matter wad i say,
is going to change wad has alrdy happen

its like a shattered mirror
scarred for life.
and im truly thankful,
to have one friend
who is always there when i need him
thank you,
so very much.

i hate me

life is like a uphill slope,
where everyone is moving upwards
and im the only one that is stayin on the same place,
or rather..
i slowly drifting backwards.
and now im having trouble trying to catch up..
i can feel the pressure like
someone pressing on my neck..

and its like everything is crumbling down,
life in a mess,
wanting to slowly make things better
onli to know that time is the thing i don have.

where is anyone when i need them,
or rather..
where is the person who i can truly talk to.
the person who can accept me for wad i am
and tolerant my childishness.
i did try to change,
but my feeling is sth that i have problem controlling,
and i cant stop my mind thinking abt stupid things.

it feels like everyone i know..
starts to feel so much like strangers..
everyone ..
ppl who used to talk almost everything with me,
start ignoring me
ppl who used to have fun with me
start to find other ppl
ppl who used to do work with me
are doing thing in their own way.

i nv wanted things to be like the way it is now..
i truly hate myself..
i hate myself
i nv felt like dying more den ever..

...............................

i dun see the reason,
why u shud get so worked up.
if wad i feel doesnt concern you.
i never expect anything from anyone.
and there ARE ppl who make use of me,
and throw me one side after im no longer useless to them.
yes,
and i have nv point finger at anyone
so why are you getting so worked up.

sorry , if i made you feel bad.
but im merely expressing wad i am feeling,
and you DO NOT HAVE TO BOTHER IT IF YOU DONT CARE.
YOU CAN JOLLY WELL IGNORE IT.

mayb im jus making a big fuss over a small thing
but
i cant help but feel bad,
it realli make me feel real bad.

to be frank,
i do care what you think.
I have nv labelled you with anyone of those ppl
and i do care wad you feel,
for its the onli one thing i am willing to die for
to make you feel better.
becus i care!

im jus so caught up in my own emotions
that i starts to do stupid things
and make ppl irritated.
i nv wanted things to become like the way it is now,
i guess nothing i say will change it.

i dun like the way i was being treated.
mayb im thinking too much,
but im starting to see the gap between us.
I have treated you more den just a fren,
and i dun jus want to be fren with you.
i wanted more.
and wad you said
had realli hurt me, badly
and im realli upset,
that you actually think that im grouping you with the other ppl
while that fact is that
Its NOT!
i want to be more den a fren to you,
i want to be there for you.

sorry..
but i know,
nothing i say..
will change the way things are, and gona be.
sorry..

i hate..

its like a bug,
that crawled deep into my heart,
itching it
hurting it
and theres nothing i cud do to stop it
it jus like a shattered mirror,
no matter how good of a master you are in mending mirrors,
there will still be scars.
that is life.
that is the suffering i have to go thru everyday,
i hate my life,
i hate myself,
i hate everything i do
:(

wad i need

wad i need now,
is a MC,
and lots of love =(..

<3 me ..

hai..

mayb sometimes,
its i think too much..
it it dun feel good..
:( ..
its like the heart being stab by a thousand blade,
rubbed with salt,
and grinded into juice
=(..
it hurts

sometimes things are jus to obvious,
that ppl keep on missing out.
the truth hurts, sorry

<3 you, always,

小豪

reBirthday?

Finally!
A REAL Bdae Cake!!
From my mum,
thanks =)

But shes not there
to share it with me :(















And a photo with my mum~















And i prayed to the cake,
to make my 19th bdae wish come true..










<3 you, always
小豪

hmm... hmm.. hmm..

very boring day..
ended up jus doing some crapy on my lappie..
take a look at my new lappie's desktop :)

and i heard,
theres going be cake tml! f
or mee !!
omgg!! b
ut eu'r not there to share it with me :(
every moment i spent with you
is moment i treasure..

<3 you, always
小豪

nooooooooooooooo

no...............................
:(
a site that i have been visiting
has been taken off!!
:(
there goes my moltivations :(

<3 you, always
小豪

new email

after hours, and hours
and hours of deleting emails
this is wad i get










i got fedup and decided to create a new email
=)
this will be my new email
lyeweihau@live.com.sg

<3 you, always
小豪

dissappointment =(

i know its bad to say this la,
but i look at my cousin,
and i look back at myself.

his got so much present for his bdae,
but i've got none of those. (mayb 1 or 2)
not that im complainning or ath,
cos at least there are you to remember
its my birthday, and thank you for celebrating for me.
but i ended up with mood swing..
im jus disappointed in myself.

i shud have jus shut myself at home.

i know its like long long time ago..
but..

oh well .. wadever ..
not like wad im saying here is gona matters..

wheres everyone?

where did everyone go?
the ppl who used to spam msgs at me
the ppl who entertain me
the ppl who hear me complain

no ones talking to me :(
where did everyone go


<3 you, always
小豪

nothing

i was typing this entry half way..
and i decided to erase everything..

im not good enuff for anything,
a few weeks/days ago,
i said to work hard to make things better,
but i had given up way too fast.

i hope i can keep up with wad i am doing now..
any least i can keep the promise i made to myself.

wads this feeling..

suddenly..
when i saw wad has happened,
i felt realli..
bad ..
it felt realli..
terrible..
like my last moltivation has gone..
hais ..
i wun question you..
but,
i hope you stay happy.

<3 you, always

小豪

you,You,YOu,YOU,YOUUUU!!!!!!

Im staring at the TV screen,
and all the images that appear in my mind is you

i still <3 euu,
always,

小豪

isnt it?

isnt it clear to you?

why i do things this way,
that make alot of ppl talk abt me.

why i always disturb you,
and suddenly become quiet when u got angry.

why i will always appear,
when u ask for me.

Why i am complainning to you all the time,
but din complain when i shud be doing it.

why we are even working together at this point

after these few days without u,
my life have turn colorless
and i can say it from the bottom of my heart
this feeling has nv been so real b4

<3 u, always

小豪

p.s. eu look realli pretty in that vest.

let me be ..

i have been consistantly trapping myself
in my own emotion world.
I dun want to let you in,
not becus i dun trust u enuff,
but i dun want our friendship to be ruin by it.
i had alway wanted to let go,
but it's one thing that will need alot of time
and its the onli one thing i dun have.

By now, i can tell my feeling for u,
are as real as it can be.
But i know im not the one for you.
Wad hurts more is being so close,
having so much to say,
and watching you walk away.
these few days, i felt that things has changed between us,
i had nv ask for anything,
all i wanted is for you to know,
if theres anything, u can always come back to me

Mayb it wasnt such a bad thing that u had not like me back,
as u said “找男朋友，不可以找这种”
and im not the kind that make a good boyfriend.
And mayb all u get from me
will onli be sufferings..
sorry..
I hope you are happy and enjoyed everything you are doing.

but i'd like you to know ( if u are reading this)
my feeling for you is real,
i dun expect anything in return,
i jus want you to be happy,
no matter wad happen,
i will always be there for you,
as a friend, as a brother, as a buddy
or jus a random guy u are working with

<3 you, always

小豪

all i wan

All i want,
is for you to be happy.
if u are happy,
im fine with anything..

<3 u, always

小豪

interesting facts?

21 OCTOBER 1988

Age in years 19.04
Age in months 229
Age in days 6950
Age in hours 166805
Age in minutes 10008304
Age in seconds 600498240
Age in Milli seconds 60049824013
Age in weeks 48651
You born on Friday

21 OCTOBER 1988 - invaluation

* Loves to chat - true, so true
* Loves those who loves him - of course! who don? =x
* Loves to takes things at the centre - hmm.. wad does it even mean >_>
* Attractive and suave - eh.. i look like a piece of shit =.=
* Inner and physical beauty - definitely have none of that
* Does not lie or pretend - i do, if i have to
* Sympathetic - i think so ? =/
* Treats friends importantly - of course!
* Always making friends - tries hard to.. but no result thou =(
* Easily hurt! but recovers easily - yes and yes! @_@
* Bad tempered - hm.. i think so.. =/
* Selfish - well.. it depends who the other person is ~ =x
* Seldom helps unless asked - duhhhh =.= .. how i know if they need help
* Daydreamer - i loved that ~
* Very opinionated - am i? am i? =.=ll
* Does not care of what others think - =.= .. of cos i definitely care wad her think
* Emotional - duhhhhh.. isnt that my personal signature
* Decisive - im fine with anything.. serious!
* Strong clairvoyance - hmm .. i think so.. but not that strong thou .. =/
* Loves to travel, the arts and literature - hmm.. yes i do =)
* Soft-spoken, loving and caring * Romantic - i dunno abt that.. noone wants to date me :(
* Touchy and easily jealous - YESS!!I can get jealous over the most smallest thing.. bahhh
* Spendthrift and easily influenced - waaaa.. how did they know that >_>
* Easily lose confidence - its alrdy sth i dun have.. but loses it after seconds i got it >_<

19/24 hits ! cool :D .. wanna have a try?
msn me for the file xD .. ahhahaha

sth random

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

y?

shes treating me so coldly..
y ..
i miss the way she say things abt me
i miss the way she cared abt me
i miss the way she tried to care abt me
i miss the way she smack me
i miss the time we spend together
i miss you..
i miss you so
so
so much ..

y have you been treating me so coldly,
have you realli no understand wad i was trying to express..
am i realli so destestable
that you have to treat me like this..
i really miss the old you..
can we go back to the days we have :(

wad i want..

wad i wan,
is you
your attention
your care
your concern
your love
everything that have to do wif u.

=(

am i ?

I not thatt bad rite ...
or am i realli that badd?

:(

sleepless nites

havent been able to slp well =(..
or rather not able to slp
for a few nite ..
mind preoccupied by all sorts of stuffs..
hai ..
mayb i shud learn to ..
give up on everythings ..
and jus let it be.. =/
i worry too much stuff..
i think too much alrdy..
hais ..

Happy birthday to myself..

Although 小豪's birthday has passed by

like 2 + weeks? And i finally bought myself

a cake, for my 19th birthday. no friends ..

not even my family .. only me alone =/ ..

and i sang myself a birthday song..

Happy birthday to me ..

Happy birthday to me ..

Happy birthday to myself..

Happy birthday to me ..

Made a wish..

will it end up like my 18th birthday wish?

i dunno .. and i hope not .. and i will work hard to make sure it dun happen again =)

07 resolution?

my list of task for the last 2 months of year 2007,

-Sell the psp.

-Find a job

-Clear my debts

-Build a castle for my princess

-become a prince for my princess



小豪might not a guy good enuff for you,

but i am willing to change myself,

and become as good as a prince to you.

...

slpless nites ..
doing projects..
thinking too much things ..
the more i think..
the more i felt inferior to her..
i felt so much like a failure ..
=/..
almost everything ..
mayb im jus ain good enuff?
=/
mayb i just needed more moltivation?
..
i want to become like one of those
LIFELESS adults..
baaaaaa ..
where is the <3 .. =(

perhaps?

i decided to upload a previous post of mine
as a poem to poetry.com
click here for the exact post.. =)

view the link on poetry.com at here .
or simply search for
last name : Lye
first name : Wei Hau

and select "you and me"

a new beginning?

the chimes of the november set me up..
and i decided its time to change.

if thing wun get better on its own
i will MAKE it better for myself
if you wun love me
i will MAKE you love me,
even if it takes me 1000 days
if my life is in a mess
i will FIX it up
if my frens stab me
i will CUT their throat

i will strive to make my life better
i will work harder den anytime
its time to break out of everything

------------------------------------

thanks for today <3

keep out

its 1.40am in the morning
i have so much stuff to do
my brain is filled to the brim..
yet i cant concentrate on my work
everytime i focus on thinking
image of you starts appearing
and the more it occur..
the worse it make me felt ..

i wanted someone.. to talk to ..
but its like a barrier ..
that stop me from doing so ..
firstly, there isnt ppl who are willing to learn to me ..
secondly, how could i tell the person that my problem comes from her
thirdly, stuff that make me feel the way i am now .. might seem minor to them. even thou its jus a small little thing , i could still break me down ..

all i can do is bottle up everything in myself..
=(..
when it overflow ..
who will be there =( ..
love me :'(